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Sinking And I Can't Swim
02:24
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They always say that things will get better
So why does pain still hurt
You were always a fucking liar
I swear I knew I was not the first
Though I needed your love
To quench this ever aching thirst
You took it all and you threw it all away
The pain that I had I felt when you said
Those damn dreaded three words
You said “I hate you” and
Let me tell you that it really fucking hurt
I knew that you would leave
But I never thought it'd be that quick
But you took my heart and you beat it with a brick
I do not know where to go anymore
So I lay here waiting patiently on the shore
For the water to cover me
And take my breath away
There is a fire burning in my chest
It has been burning brighter
Since the day that you left
There is a pain I feel
I wish that you would see
That there's a help wanted sign
Hanging from my arteries
I rarely ever even get out of bed
Because when I see you
I really wish that I was dead
All I ever wanted was a friend
And you lied to me and said
You'd love me until the end
You took all the pieces from my heart
That made up me
And now living is just so hard
You let me fall into a pit
And now I’m stuck for good
I do not know where to go anymore
So I lay here waiting patiently on the shore
For the water to cover me
And take my breath away
There is a fire burning in my chest
It has been burning brighter
Since the day that you left
There is a pain I feel
I wish that you would see
That there's a help wanted sign
Hanging from my arteries
There is a flood in my lungs
Every part of me is sinking
I’m drowning in a pool
Of the depressing things I’m thinking
I'm sinking and I can't swim
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2. |
Here With Me
05:20
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Feels like I'm floating through existence
I don't really have control
Tell me to let go of the distance
That we've sadly kind of grown
Feels like the veins that meet my head
With the pulsing of my heart
Are exploding with emotions, making me just fall apart
I need you here today
I wanna see you be okay
I wanna watch you as you show the world
That you have truly grown
But I'm waking up
With or without you
And I hope that you're watching
Cause I really need you here
And I'm waking up
With or without you
But I hope that you are watching
Cause I really need you here
And I broke down this morning
Felt the pull of madness in my heart
And I've been quitting smoking
But I want to feel that shit hit hard
I wanna go back to the moments
With the jokes and all the laughs
I hope you see me now and watch me
As I hope you just come back
I wanna die
But I wanna live for you
So I will try
To go on as much as I can
But I wanna die
But I wanna live for you
I know you would love that
So I'll just do my best
But I'm waking up
With or without you
And I hope that you're watching
Cause I really need you here with me
But I'm waking up
With or without you
But I hope that you are watching
Cause I really need you here
Here with me
Here with me
Stay here with me
Here with me
Here with me
Stay here with me
But I'm waking up
Without you
Yeah I'm waking up
And you're not here with me
I'm waking up
Without you
Yeah I'm waking up
And you're not here with me anymore
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3. |
Dear Rebecca
01:58
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Why do I still hurt
Been a year and I still cant touch the surface
I don't know where I've been going
For the past few years
Why do I still cry
Been a hell of a ride since you disappeared
I eat the poison
Hoping it makes my memories fade away
I'm broken for sure
I've been letting out my anger on this brick wall
Make my knuckles bleed
I deserve to bleed, I deserve it oh
I deserve to cry
After crushing your lonely bloody heart
I've been paying for my sins
In my bed with a blade and nicotine
Why do I still hurt
Been a year and I still cant touch the surface
I don't know where I've been going
For the past few years
Why do I still cry
Been a hell of a ride since you disappeared
I eat the poison
Hoping it makes my memories fade away
Dear Rebecca
Are you waiting on the other end
Are you gonna call my name
Or let me jump up off the edge
Dear Rebecca
You left your pink socks on my floor
Every time I open my door
I realize I can't see you anymore
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4. |
My Best Friend
02:11
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When I feel I want to die at any time of day
You talk to me assure me that everything's okay
You’re my best friend and I hope that you stay in my life
For without you I would want to meet my chest with a knife
If you ever need my help you know you can always ask
For my friend I would do anything if that is the task
I swear I’ll never leave your side I swear that I will never die
For as long as I have you there’s no reason for me to fly
I know it’s kind of weird for me to write you this song
But I just want you to know that I will love you for so long
You’re the friend that gives me hope
And the friend I don’t deserve
but you stay with me anyways, why? I’m not so sure
Sometimes I think it’s best if I only run away
But then you talk to me and convince me to stay
You take the knife from my hands and tell me that I’m wrong
You let me believe there’s purpose so I write this song
You’re the friend that gives me hope, the friend I don’t deserve
For without you I’d be sad and lonely in this cold world
You let me believe my sad thoughts are always wrong
So now I sit alone in my room and write this song
I thought I was alone until the day you talked to me
So now I sit here and we both laugh happily
why do you cry? for you’re still young
because the thought of losing you is a thought that isn’t fun
You let me believe my sad thoughts are always wrong
So now I sit alone in my room and write this song
I thought I was alone until the day you talked to me
So now I sit here and we both laugh happily
why do you cry? for you’re still young
because the thought of losing you is a thought that isn’t fun
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5. |
Phobias
02:34
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I am a flower stuck in a pot
I don’t want water, no I want to rot
I want to feel pain and agony
Jump off a bridge and smile happily
These urges they will never leave
As long as I’m left alive to grieve
I want to be dug into the ground
Where I can’t make a single sound
I am scared to be afraid
Scared of promises we’ve made
Because what if they end up breaking
Just like I’ll end suffocating
This is not a suicide note
More so a mourning letter
Because I know that without me
Your life would be so much better
There is a lump of emotions
Clogging up my brain
When I want to feel happy
All I ever feel is pain
I am lost and so terrified
Why can’t someone clarify
My purpose in this broken world
Full of broken boys and broken girls
This world is polluted by lies that are told
In a fashion of truth and their meanings don’t hold
In a world where we’re born with the purpose of dying
I don’t understand the point in relying
On other people who have their own problems
Especially when there’s no way for you to solve them
There’s smiles and laughs but there’ll always be tears
Which is why the thought of living causes me so much fear
I am scared to be afraid
Scared of promises we’ve made
Because what if they end up breaking
Just like I’ll end suffocating
This is not a suicide note
More so a mourning letter
Because I know that without me
Your life would be so much better
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6. |
It Was Paradise
04:42
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Light another cigarette
I guess I'll take the fall
Used to love to lay in bed
But I don't wanna be home at all
I remember when we used to talk
You used to say you wanna die
And now under the circumstances
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
You never lied
Take me back to when we used to smoke under the bridge
And you'd tell me that you love me
And I could tell you really did
It was a good old time in old Bynum
Walking around didn't give a shit
And now I sit alone wishing we talked
After the last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
So when I feel alone
I will think of you
And the times we used to smoke
And the day we tripped on acid
And even though we were pretty sad
I think it's safe to say
Compare to now
It was paradise
It was paradise
So now I'll light another cigarette
I guess I'll take the fall
Used to love to lay in bed
But I don't wanna be home at all
I remember when we used to talk
You used to say you wanna die
And now under the circumstances
You never lied
You never
Take me back to when we used to smoke under the bridge
And you'd tell me that you love me
And I could tell you really did
It was a good old time in old Bynum
Walking around didn't give a shit
And now I sit alone wishing we talked
After the last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
Last time we did
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Let us wear our clothes
Let us live our own way
The way you used to live
It's just not doing right
Let us be our own
For only we can grow
No point in feeling hatred
We just do with what we know
Let's all just go and smoke
Pass it to your brother
Pass it to your sister
And Feel yourself let go
If only for an hour
Or even for a minute
We don't have to hear your input
Let's all go ahead and smoke
Don't make us feel below
For trying to make the best
Of a bad situation that was put atop our heads
Our generation, divided and afraid
For at any age
There's a fear of
Getting blown to bits
Adults and even kids
Scared of our own kind
Scared of our own minds
Maybe we will find
A way to take it back
Or at least make it better
But for now
Let's all just go and smoke
Pass it to your brother
Pass it to your sister
And feel yourself let go
If only for an hour
Or even for a minute
We don't have to hear your input
Let's all just go ahead and smoke
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8. |
Panic Attack Thoughts
01:36
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I have a lot of nightmares but I rarely ever sleep
And when I dream of you the memories they cut so deep
Why did you have to leave this world and leave me all alone
You were an unhappy girl, I loved you from skin to bone
When you took your life away you took mine with it
My old scars are now wounds and now I’m in need of stitches
We used to watch the walking dead now I’ve become a walking dead
I lay alone inside this bed and now you will not leave my head
I am so tired of all of this hurt
Tie me up with some wire throw me into the dirt
Lay me breathless in this deep dark hole
And take my life but please just leave my soul
Now I beat myself up over something I couldn’t stop
I’ll get closer to the edge until my body finally drops
I’m scared of meeting new people because there’s a chance that they
Will be like you and give up on me and only run away
I was a sad boy, when I saw you I wasn’t scared
But now that you’re gone I no longer feel aware
All this time I can’t believe I ever thought that you cared
So now I lay in bed and think about the memories we shared
I have a lot of nightmares but I rarely ever sleep,
and when I dream of you the memories they cut so fucking deep
I want sleep I want happiness please no more fucking pain
Just take your sharp rotten teeth and bite into my veins
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Parents
02:03
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You raised me to do my best, and to not be depressed
So I wear these clothes tainted with lies that I’ve said
Thank you for all that you’ve done, I swear it was all in good fun
I swear I write this music cause you guys are the only ones
That I want to impress while my mind is compressed
in these depressing emotions that I keep so suppressed
I know I don’t talk much though you raised me all my life
I’m so sorry but sometimes my anxiety spikes
And I want to be alone in my room full of silence
While I wonder what your life would be if I were dying.
I love you guys to death though I’ll hate myself till death
But you raised me to do my best, so I will keep it all suppressed
So I sit with my guitar at my desk that we built
And I cry and the strings they are soaked with my guilt
I lie to you and say I don’t know why I have attacks
When it’s my want for dying please I just only want that
Please forgive me as a son, for I’m the only one
that walks this slow walk while I only want to run.
I know I don’t talk much though you raised me all my life
I’m so sorry but sometimes my anxiety spikes
So I sit with my guitar at this desk that we built
And I cry and the strings they are soaked with my guilt.
I want to run home, where you all wait for me
I want to say goodbye to the people I call family.
I want to end it quick, but there is no way I can
Because I don’t even know the reason why I ran
So I sit with my guitar at the desk that we built
And I cry and the strings they are soaked with my guilt
I know I don’t talk much though you raised me all my life
I’m so sorry but my anxiety seems to have spiked.
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10. |
Wow You're So Cool
01:57
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Bet your friends are like wow you're so cool
Where's your ex? I hated that dude
He was so annoying
I bet you'd agree with them too
And I think that I'm losing my mind
Turn off your phone, and I'll turn off mine,
We will wait up till the morning knowing we were
Bluffing but we're both too scared to talk
Now you're drunk out on the porch
You wanna stand up but we both know that you'd pass out
So you lay there early morning
While I'm mourning all the times I spent with you
All the time we spent thinkin where would we be at 22
So you looked up at my face
With a calm look while the tears begin to race
I just stood there waiting patiently to have my heart ripped out
Now you're drunk out on the porch
You wanna stand up but we both know that you'd pass out
So you lay there early morning
while I'm mourning all the times I spent with you
All the time we spent thinkin where would we be at 22
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11. |
Sunny Day Into Rain
01:17
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Everyday is just another day
where I sit down and self deprecate
I don't know what to say
When you show up unknowingly
I just try to stay away
You cause the sunny to turn into rain
To turn into rain
Everyday is just another day
where I sit down and self deprecate
I don't know what to say
When you show up unknowingly
I just try to stay away
You cause the sunny to turn into rain
To turn into rain
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12. |
This Great Beauty
03:30
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This girl she was lonely and by coincidence so was I
And to this damn day I still do not know why
She gave me conversation while I gave her admiration
I know I’m bad at showing emotions but I swear you give me joy
I was afraid though you made me feel safe
There was a long time of my life where I thought I was a disgrace
These emotions that I’m feeling they feel so great
It is just so appealing and I don’t know what to ever say
I’m self conscience and insecure but when you’re with me I feel cured
There’s no phrases that could explain how much you make me feel secure
There was a void inside my chest but now you’re here and it’s bright
I was lost in a state of gloom and now I’ve found the light
You are the hole in my roof of clouds that lets the sun shine through
I could be around millions of people but still only notice you
So I write these sad songs about how much I care
You have this great beauty that puts me in awe as I stare
You were once a lonely girl and I was once a lonely boy
I know I’m bad at showing emotions but I swear you give me joy
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep and hope that you will be in my dreams
But I end having a nightmare in which you just leave
There was nobody else that was ever on my mind
But you and the never-ending fear that you would decline
When I asked you the question that would soon change my life
And now I’m with the girl I wanna grow with until I die
You are the hole in my roof of clouds that lets the sun shine through
I could be around millions of people but still only notice you
So I write these sad songs about how much I care
You have this great beauty that puts me in awe as I stare
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13. |
Remorse
02:17
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is there anyway at all
I could see your face again
I've been missing those bright blue eyes
Is there anyway at all
I could feel your touch again
I've been missing the flowers and light blue skies
It's all just grey
It's all just grey
It's all just dark and gloomy and I don't like it this way
I miss you
Oh I miss you
Oh I miss you so fucking much
Is there anyway at all
We can walk through shore again
I've been missing that blonde hair and quite cute smile
Is there anyway at all
We can sing and laugh again
I've been missing that voice for the longest while
I've been broken and sore
I've been laying on the shore
I've been crushed by the door
Slamming behind your back
And I know that your smile had always been forced
But it's not my fault, no
it's not my fault, but I'm sorry
Is there anyway at all
We can cry and yell again
Have another argument
Like we used to
Could you slap me in the face
Tell me how stupid I've been
Could you let me know that I have fucked up again
I have ruined it all, you knew you should have left the last time
the last time
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14. |
Without The Sun
03:08
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Without the sun
This cold dark world
It would die
Even with the sun
We've turned this world so cold and dark
And it'll die
Around the world
People are trying to grow
But still we'll die
Around the world
Seeds are planted as far as we know
But we'll die
I swear
That I will see you soon my friend
Someday I'll die
Turn off the lights
And pretend I'm alright
There is pain
In the bags under my eyes
And it never subsides
But I swear I'll see you soon my friend
Someday I'll die
Yeah I swear I'll see you soon my friend
And someday I'll die
Because without the sun
This cold dark world
It would die
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Fidel Vasquez, a.k.a Giant Bird, is an independent solo artist based in Siler CIty, North Carolina..
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